This last week...

...has been one giant emotional rollercoaster. I've been happy, angry, upset, confused, insecure, confident, and everything else in between.

The Every 15 Minutes program made a huge impact on me. Of 16 students that "died", I personally knew 12 of them. One of which was one of my best friends, and another was someone that is guaranteed to make me smile and laugh on a daily basis. When I saw them get taken away, I just couldn't handle it. I missed them so much. The car crash scenario wasn't easy for me either. It reminded me of Timmy. Oh, and the flatline playing every 15 minutes was nothing short of devastating. I couldn't help but relive the memories of seeing John in the hospital bed.

Today was the funeral. It was so sad and moving. I haven't cried that much in months. When it was over, and immediately went to Emma and Aaron and gave them a hug. I love them so much, and I don't ever want to lose them again. Even if it was only for 24 hours.

In the last week, I've come to realize:
- Forgiving yourself and others for past mistakes is the first step to happiness.
- The drama and stupid fights aren't worth it.
- I take the time I have with the people I love for granted.
- I'm getting closer and closer to finding myself.

Basically, I appreciate life and my loved ones so much more. It troubles me how much I took that time for granted, but that's all going to change.